I have so many
thoughts and feelings and they just weren’t coming together in the way I hoped
so, a list will have to do.
· *
Lee
Daken is the most wonderful blessing and miracle Kevin and I have experienced
to date.
·
*The
process of delivery is a beautiful miracle.
· * The incredible
women who place babies for adoption to give them a better life are some of the
strongest and most selfless people
in the world.
· *
A
mother's-love is one of the most powerful things I have ever felt.
· * Babies
are so incredibly close to God.
· *
Each
birth of a child is a miracle.
·
The
desire and longing to be a mother doesn’t make me super-human in dealing with
the physical strain of a new baby that doesn’t sleep at night very much.
·
Trying
to meet the simple needs of an infant can be absolutely exhausting.
·
Spending
all day everyday trying to meet the simple needs of baby Lee has brought the
greatest happiness I’ve experienced as well as the greatest physical strain.
·
I don’t
know how you couldn’t be absolutely obsessed with your children.
· * I can’t
watch or hold our sweet Lee enough.
· *
I don’t
know how to properly thank our Heavenly Father for the much-desired blessing of
being a mother.
· * My heart
aches for those I love still waiting to be wives and mothers.
· *
I feel
like I can relate to Alma the younger in his feelings after he repented and
received forgiveness in my feelings during our trial of faith with infertility
and since Lee was born;
Alma
36:20 “And oh, what joy, and what marvelous light I did behold; yea, my soul
was filled with joy as exceeding as was my pain!”
* There is
so much physical and emotional change that comes with having a baby.
* Having a
baby really changes a body physically. Those changes, though maybe not
permanent, are really hard emotionally while they last.
*It is really emotionally straining when you don’t know how to help your
baby. (i.e. when Lee had Jaundice or when his circumcision site was bleeding
and we had to take him to the E.R. or when he wouldn’t eat at first and I tried
everything with the aide of 3 different lactation specialists before I had any
success.)
PS, Everything
is fine now, all that happened in the first week of Lee’s life.
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| In his Billibed. |
*
It takes
no time at all to feel genuine and sometimes painful concern for your children.
(I can’t imagine what it will be like when they have emotional hardships too.)
*
Nothing
but continuously praying for strength and guidance could get me through being a
new mom and having absolutely no idea what I’m doing really.
*
Motherhood
has brought me a strong sense of need for the Atonement of our Savior.
*
Being a
mother is the most wonderful occupation in the world for me.
· *
A good
dad/husband makes all the difference for a tired mom/wife. Kevin has been my
lifesaver.
· * My own
mother is an absolute SUPERSTAR, I can’t imagine how she managed to raise 6 of
us with a husband that had very demanding callings in our church that required
him to be out of the home most evenings and Sundays basically the whole time we
were all growing up.
· *
My Momma
saved me the first few weeks of Lee’s life and we BOTH miss her like crazy now
that we’re away in Colorado for the summer.
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| Me and Lee on our first outing. |
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| The whole family. |
· *
I can
only imagine how hard it must be for our Heavenly Father to let us suffer to
become like Him and to let Christ suffer so that we are able to return to Him
someday.
· *
My mind
can easily go crazy wanting some semblance of order and activity in my life
while my physical body is just not ready for it yet.
*
Family
truly is the most important thing in the world, in whatever type or size of
family we find ourselves.
*
Our
waiting and struggle has affected every aspect of being parents now, we are
different people and parents than we ever could have been if we hadn’t gone
through that particular trial first.
*
I STILL
don’t understand God’s timing but I daily have to keep reminding myself that
God knows truly what’s best for us and that I have to put my trust in Him.
*
As the
sons of Mosiah learned from reflecting on their mission experiences in
retrospect, I know that God fulfills ALL His promises and hears ALL our
prayers.
Alma
25:17 “…the Lord had granted unto them according to their prayers, and
that he had also verified his word unto them in every particular.”
